Sunshine brightest my soul! Today I pulled back all the blinds on our windows facing south and let the sunshine in!! It was amazing.

Life in October is always interesting for me! I have good days and I have days that are not so good - but I am thinking that I am too consumed with “me” and not grateful enough for the many good things around me. The urgent often gets in the way of life and I don’t like that.

Today was spent with some great friends Jerry, Kelly and Darren. We had some great conversations together sitting in the sunshine in our living room. Kelly had an “aha” moment where something suddenly came crystal clear to her - that was amazing. There is no doubt some would have perhaps questioned our conversation, but it was honest and we could be just who we are. Isn’t it too bad that often we have to hide who we really are because we know we will not be accepted or appreciated or we are afraid to say what we really think because we are not sure how we will be responded to. I am so glad I do have friends who I can be myself with and we may not always agree, but we agree to disagree and love the stimulating conversations that come out of those differences.

I am learning lots these days but most of it is not something I can write about - things deep inside that often are difficult to articulate. I find that in my dark days that learning is deep and doesn’t feel so great, but that’s okay - nobody said life would be easy!

Grateful - my good friend Kim talked about practicing an attitude of gratefulness - that has been good for me - I love the beautiful hoarfrost that was on the trees this week with the sun shining on them and as I took the long way to work to enjoy this beautiful scene - I know that the ocean is Hawaii is beautiful, but there is still nothing like the sparkling of the frost on the trees with the sun shining brightly in a cool clear blue sky! Yes, I do need the sun and the many gray days we’ve had are just that - graaaaaaaaaaaaay! I need the sun - both sun and Son!