Thanks for your comments! The little baby still needs our prayers. Her condition is still serious and we need to continue to pray for wisdom and courage in the days ahead. Pray for the young parents who have been standing, praying and watching this little baby of theirs go through one difficult time after another. Let’s trust and pray for them as often the stress is too difficult for them to do either.

I am sad as tomorrow our daughter Tamara leaves again. She is heading to Langley, BC for a couple of days; then on to Haiwii for about 10 days and then off to Japan to live, for we don’t know how long. She has a visiting/working visa for 1 year. Time just goes too quickly when it comes to our children. It has been an amazing 4 months with much learning under our belts! I always know that parting will come again, but it never gets easier to say good-bye…maybe a little easier if she was just going to Edmonton and I could get into a car and connect whenever…Japan is just a little bit further.

What I have been pondering these past days is about our spirituality and how a hunger or thirst for going deeper into our relationship with God comes about. Can we create a thirst for God in others by how we live or is it only God the Holy Spirit who can give us a thirst for Himself? What does it look like or feel like to hunger and thirst after God?

I have also been pondering about the stress in my life! Both my children have confronted me with the way I handle life and how stressful my life is! So…what causes stress in my life…is this honouring to God and to my family…how do I get to the point in my life where life is enjoyed and embraced rather than endured and stressed about. This is not an easy question for me who is driven by success and by what I accomplish…this should not be how I live. Hence some of the learning I have been doing…

Sabbath…we have removed Sabbath from our life. Growing up the Sabbath was kept vigilantly in our home, in that, rest…connecting with friends and family…no work done…everything prepared the day before…SO what does the Sabbath look like in my life today…here are some of the things I am doing in my life to create some space…

1. Being ruthless with my schedule and keeping my evening activities involving work to a minimum…hard for me to do but very necessary in my life.

2. Doing a Silent Directed Retreat November 11-14 at Queen’s House of Retreat…that is spending time alone and also working with a Spiritual Director in bringing focus into my inner life.

3. Looking at the deeper rhythum of my life…looking at the example of Jesus and even though His schedule was full He did not finish all his work before taking time to be with His Father…what is my deeper rhythum and am I attuned to it and living by it.

4. Taking a course in March on Spiritual Direction…being at Queen’s House of Retreat for a week, being quiet, learning to pray in different ways, having a Spiritual Director work with me…move towards being a Spiritual Director myself…exciting but scary.

If I want to be a catalyst for growth in others, I need to keep on the cutting edge of learning in my own life as well…for now that means being quiet and listening to the still, small voice of God. I am being guided by these words…Be still and know that I am God…or Be still until you know that I am God…and the verse given me by our Bishop on becoming a Commissioned Minister…”in quietness and confidence shall be your strength”…I need to be quiet to know who God is and who I am and then in confidence I can move out into loving my neighbour as myself…

Just my thoughts…

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